Cheers Sexy People!
Well, as with anything in life, living a polyamorous lifestyle has its ups and downs. The past week has had its share of that for me. Maybe one of the things that I enjoy about being polyamorous is my dread of boredom, and my enjoyment of living life to the fullest. Sometimes the big highs — and even the lows if I’m being really honest with myself — help me feel alive, help me feel that my journey is a constant stream of personal growth and pushing myself even when I don’t want to, constantly picking myself up off the floor to try again… and again. And sure, there are days where staring at a wall for a couple of hours to reboot my brain and freakin’ chill out might be just what I need too. Being polyamorous has helped me get better in tune with reading my own emotional signals as well as physical signs of distress. Why? More relationships = more potential misunderstandings, more crossed wires, more negotiation, more emotions to sift through…. I love it. Bring it! But some days are better than others.
Some of the highs this week include going to the zoo with my lover and watching a seal twirl, dance and chase a banana that a child is holding outside the glass because it looks like a shiny fish; grinning, dancing and giggling my head off with my girlfriends while my husband and boyfriend make us all dinner; working on this blog and finding out that I reached someone in a truly helpful and rewarding way; great intimate sexy moments followed by awesome cuddles and a dreamless nap… Some of the lows include struggling with finding the right words to express myself in a loving way and failing miserably, setting boundaries with my partners that feel right to me but might be construed as hurtful to them, saying something in a quick fit of anger that I immediately regret and have to apologize for it…
Hey, I’m not perfect. But I’m trying… really damn hard sometimes. Some days I get it right, and some days I fall down. But I’m learning and loving and living, that’s for sure. LISTENING is the other “L” word I am constantly working on as well. 🙂
The below article is a great one that I revisited this week to help center myself again, and remind myself of great nuggets of wisdom that I maybe need to tattoo on my forehead (or have visions of tattooing them on other people’s foreheads –> said with love and humor, of course. 🙂 ) There is some really fabulous, quality stuff in here. I hope you enjoy it.
Wishing you peace, love and happiness,
(and thrilling, great sex too!)